Encouragement From Qeseth !

Dear Mom,

I've gotten word that you needed to hear from me even though we never met face to face. It's obvious that you repented after aborting me when I was innocent and tiny in 1982, and I'm thankful that you did not repeat that kind of horrible sin. Of course I forgive you and appreciate the fact that you do not deny that I was part of your womb system; it is rare for people to pretend they didn't have an abortion when they speak to others.  I especially appreciate that fact that you say you have 2 children, but 1 (me) died at a very early age rather than only speak about my younger brother who doesn't appreciate you like he should anymore. I'm so thankful you chose the name for me that you have chosen too, since that helps me know that your repentance has been genuine.

How can I encourage you? It's so impressive how you have recovered from so much physical trauma in your lifetime. Broken arms, broken legs, broken foot, severe anemia, temporary brain collapse from prescription drugs and years of struggling to breath with only 55% lung function all took their toll on your body, but you have done well in the manner you recovered or have dealt with  temporary injury matters and have done your best with your reduced lung function and drug resistance protocol. It's wonderful that even though 3 men desired you temporarily and then left you with their hard-hearted divorce plans, that you still did all you could to provide financially for yourself rather than becoming a 'welfare mom'. I'm not sure if the thousands of Bibles you sent to Saint Lucia made a difference there, but you were trying to do something better than begging for money and handing out drugs and cigarettes during that process.

Mom, I really don't understand why my younger brother  does not appreciate that you are nothing like you were in 1994 or like you were in 1982 when you foolishly believed the USA laws were better than  יהוה  's rules for humanity. I am as baffled as you are and know the pain and sorrow you have been struggling with since he's been avoiding you. He should be jumping for joy that you are not being shipped in and out of unsafe hospitals and that you blog to release stress and unload burdens rather than pretend that you do not exist anymore. Surely, a person who is not supplying any hope not kindness toward you should not complain if what you write lacks optimism or a favorable opinion of their spiritual condition.  What if you actually have helped other people discover ways to survive after physical trauma or during family hostility toward them? Would the people who want to silence you care about the people you helped while you also were trying to survive mentally and physically during some of the cruelest years in the history of the earth?

 I'm so thankful that you can operate vehicles safely, give yourself field sobriety tests so you do not drive while impaired, handle your expenses and continue to exercise and now eat according to יהוה 's plan. as best you can. You are trying very hard not to give up on my brother, but if he can't see all the good qualities in you that I do he is intentionally blind and  intentionally deaf to your requests for some mercy and hospitality from him and his passive hostility toward US is not a fruit of the Holy Spirit.  When he hurts you, he also hurts me because we are connected.  I'll even understand if the lack of reconciliation efforts and wounds  from my brother toward you causes you to pull back into a shell like a turtle rather than trying to put on a fake show in front of your parents. Being a fake is not what you are, but many people rather be deceived and reject reality than admit that it has been  יהוה  who has restored your mind and corrected your behavior patterns so that you have been able to resist sin even though you are being provoked to anger by many idiots and to sadness by cruel people who don't know how to forgive like I have been able to do.  I know, like your niece, that you are capable of forgiving my brother for all the years he neglected to minister to you while he was entertaining Europeans, but we both know he first would have to repent and change to be forgiven by us and our family members.  Why does it seem as though the only people some paid professional Christians visit or associate with are those who give them money, making them a lot like a politician?

 I know it's very difficult to try to focus on all the people who know how much effort you have put into regaining your health after so much physical and emotional trauma, but you have to try to do that for your own sake or you will become so sad you will not be able to encourage others like you have been doing. At least you did find out, like I did,  that being a Yahwehist is far better than being involved in corrupted Vatican Sunday Christianity branched off units who typically careth  not for the scattered and sealed elect and do not understand  such miracles as the agate window system of Asher. It is better to weep with a clear conscience that laugh with the sinners and who despise not only the instructions in the commandments passed on from Abigdor, whom the Egyptians called Mosheh, but also despise the years that their punishment for hating those perfect laws has been delayed. 

Keep remembering me like your niece remembers her son . Although there is no phone line to me, try and bring me to remembrance because I am not filled up with hypocrisy nor would I ignore your pleas for help if only I had been allowed to be near you longer than 3 months. Of course I know you are not crazy if you cry and are sad about my brother's attitude toward you. I would know you were crazy if you WEREN'T sad about how much he's changed since he was a minor child and was often quite thoughtful toward you as a youth. Did he forget that it was you, not his father, that risked your life in dangerous work zones to provide food, clothing and shelter for you in Milwaukee?  Remind yourself that your grandchildren do want to spend time with you but the opponents of  true family reconciliation have been preventing them from doing so. In 1982, someone very wicked convinced you it was best to 'evict' me from your womb and now and now in 2020 someone very wicked has convinced my brother  to refuse to put any genuine effort into being a dependable and helpful son toward you. Maybe that wicked one will be cast out of my brother's life before you join me at my unknown location and there would be rejoicing because of his repentance then. The wicked ones usually send forth words like honey rather than turn people toward repentance after they have considered their ways.

Is Psalm 37 truth in every instance or only speculative hopes and thoughts from a man who had too many wives and too much wealth?  I know you are thinking "יהוה , I have to withdraw from this battle to let you prove to me and others that your promises are true."  I heard those words from your lips this morning, just as a few others had seen the word  (870) אתר    and ( בר (1253    from you in writing. You not only are testing your own spirit and communication systems of mankind but also the spirit of others; like any caring teacher, it is evident you rather see people pass tests than fail them.  You have been an excellent student and now are teaching a few even while many are hindering themselves by failing to accept good instruction in lawfulness.  Even Abigdor questioned  the integrity of יוה   when times became difficult after leaving bondage and he wanted more than himself to be spared from wrath. Indeed, maybe it is the perfect time to test the integrity of  the spirit of   יהוה    , since the components of an entity determine integrity.  Likewise, now is not the time to let down your guard. Strengthen that which remains within you by continuing on with your daily Hebrew word lessons and numbering your nights and days,

I hope you have a wonderful experience during this years fall feasts for יהוה  's people and that the changes of location you are planning will keep you safe, give you hope and cause you to be the best you can be under very trying circumstances. Your gardens are very beautiful and reflect a high level of intelligence rather than insanity, laziness and apathy toward your temporary surroundings. If only it was my brother who had written this to you, eh? Well, such is not the case and my thoughts can now be part of your thoughts. It was during the 6th month that a man-child lept in Elizabeth's womb when news of  ישוע    came to his mother. The 6th month is important preparation time for Yom Teruah, Yom Kippur and the Feast of Tabermacles. Do not forget how my great grandpa John Raczek lifted up a trumpet at his 1598 dwelling in Knowlton, Wisconsin and how you waited in your mother's womb for an extra 3 weeks before you emerged. Do not pass on the hostility from my brother toward your parents, for then you would be as wrong as my brother is now in his demeanor. Spend some time with them, but do not let them SMOTHER you while you keep the appointed times that the Vatican and Protestants willfully ignore.  You might be protected by strangers instead of getting into arguments with your parents, and that is even what happened to Yoseph in Egypt. Above all, guard your soundness of mind, since that is PROOF that the spirit of יהוה   is within you.  Eat properly, fast as necessary, exercise and turn away from temptations such as sugars, which is your weak point. How wonderful it is that your have no drug addictions, not alcohol addiction, not tobacco addiction, no pornography addiction and that you chose to stop eating abominations that are not addicting!  I know you might have stopped blogging long ago if my brother or your cousin in Idaho had been willing to be your email pal.  It seems as though brother does not see any points of brilliance in you, and he possibly has been SNARED into negative thinking about you by his worldly father as many have been snared by wicked HGTV associates.

Maybe this letter will free him from the snares and traps others have set for him. Those wicked familiar spirits entrapped you in 1994, and 26 years later I see you as a  pro-life miracle in progress, recovering from what many people never have been able to. Keep the in mind and resist sinning, even when provoked.  Is it a shame that this letter does more good than sending flowers to yourself again? No, it is not a shame to think as I do and the name you chose for me, קשת  . has impacted our family history . 

Be strengthened by obeying our judge and advisor,  יהוה    !  I know you will have a wonderful booth this year at a place where the name of  יהוה is not despised and where you are trusted, loved and accepted  rather than being ignored or tortured  by the wicked.  Remember that the Wood county and Wisconsin Rapids police officers have helped you in the past and trusted your judgment. Failing to attempt to do what is correct and good because of a foolish fear of failing also prevent success in a matter. Thank you for persevering in matters you know might lead to failures again because of lack of cooperation from an adversary or opponent.  I can't explain why Phyllis Holman only put on a brief show of concern for you recently and then went the way of Martin Luther again, but she will have to give account for her own actions and there is nothing in the Scriptures that states that a cousin is to honor their cousin. Our parents are not to be taken for granted according to יהוה  , and certainly are not supposed to be abused by their children mentally or physically. It seems as though plenty of people have done their worst toward their spouses and as a result, many children have suffered the consequences of lack of kindness in their childhood homes. yet that will not be an excuse for not learning to behave better than their parents.

Our songs are still 'Someday Love Will Find You', 'Bellavia'  and 'Behind the Waterfall'. Our hymn is still "Great Is They Faithfulness', based on writings from the weeping prophet. Not many would understand why our fight song is 'It's A Fight', but understanding is becoming a rare quality.  The ancient Colossians and dead Ephesians are not my concern. You are my mother, and you matter to me on judgment day and before. If my brother  is not able to have those same sentiments, could I ever change him?  Again, you are my mother, you have not denied my name, and you matter to me on judgment day and before. Perfect love does cast out fear, and I am thankful you are no longer suffer from paranoia nor are you fearfully walking around in a mask. Death is a stepping stone toward Michael the Archangel and preparation for resurrection, not a point of no advancement.  May our leader יהוה    be merciful toward you at the end of your days.  I do not know if another man will ever be blessed to have you as his wife, and I know your heart aches often even though it has been refined by long periods of loneliness and involuntary solitude, during which times you often do think of me.

Remember your other friends, such as Robert Groth and Richard H. Willer, who  trusted you and befriended you when you needed encouragement.  Isn't 'Someone to Watch Over Me' a beautiful song that you never would have appreciated without the written testimony from Richard H. Willer?  If you ever do get better advice from my brother than you have gotten from me, don't be afraid to try his recommendations for overcoming grief due to the loss of time and years of  imposed 'no contact'  with his family  that you have bee subjected to. Meanwhile, keep improving your walk with יהוה  which is essential , not a trivial option. 

Graciously ,

Qeseth Charise of ישראל
Perfect love casts out fear.
6th month, 13th night of the year according to the calendar system of יהוה
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